~0ficialmadhatter

So yeah. I got back from England on the fourth. Lawl. I had so many missed calls. People acted like I never told them when I swore I bragged to everyone about it. o_o I kind of miss it. Went to stay with my bf's parents, which was sort of fun I suppose. Just kind of awkward because you're used to having so much more freedom. The cold there was so much nicer than it is down here, though. It was a nice visit, and his family was really sweet. Didn't buy very much, though; but I got tons of pictures. I want more of us. ><

Been working my butt off since then, though. Not much time for anything. Been trying to convince myself to draw, though. All I do is sketch nowadays. I never finish anything. It'll get going as a good sketch, sometimes it'll be inked. But I either lack courage or motivation to finish it. Maybe art's just gone down the drain for me. I just can't seem to sit and work on something for long periods of time anymore. My train of thought just starts bouncing everywhere and I really can't sit and concentrate. My house is pretty distracting too, I suppose.

My new years resolution is college. May or may not happen, but what I -want- to look into is cosmetology. I just hope I can juggle school, work, and a relationship. Sometimes I feel like my boyfriend has trouble doing it, and I'm scared to see how it'll be when I start. >< He wants me to move in with him, and that'll be another big step in my life, as well. He gave me a lot of options to consider, and I have a bad way of handling things. I more stress over them than expect them to come and happen and.. something. All this is so new to me, and I only hope it comes as easy and not as a task that I can't handle. I'm sure I could do it if I really put my mind to it, just mustering up the courage to start my own life and putting myself out there is the harder part.

Mmf..I'm tired and I miss my boyfriend. Sometimes living with him doesn't seem so bad, when other days it seems like it may be. This movie is distracting me, so I think I'll hush now.